Kathryn & Carl

December 18, 2009

Pray?

Filed under: Uncategorized — Kathryn @ 11:28 pm

Got an email today from an agent in Oregon who wants to see the first 3 chapters of my historical fiction book. I’m always ambivalent about praying for things like this, because I’m overwhelmingly aware of the fact that I truly have no idea what’s best for me… let alone anyone else.

I’ve actually been spending a lot of time evaluating and praying through my writerly ambitions lately. I often question the value of what I do—both the quality of my writing and, to be honest, even the prospect of “success” leaves me doubtful. I can’t imagine not writing and not wanting to be published, and yet I think sometimes about the pressure of deadlines, of rewriting for the hundredth time, the daily temptation to check amazon’s sell chart, the frustrating fact that if it’s nearly impossible to sell a book as an unpublished author, it’s even worse for the guy with one book that already flopped…

What I’m saying is that, like certain gray donkeys I know, I pretty much live under my own thundercloud.

I really, really want this random middle-aged guy in Oregon to like my book (at least enough to look at the FULL manuscript, maybe?). It’s hard to be patient, to let myself hope, and to be clear-sighted about what I really ought to be doing.

Am off to revise.

Pray for my mental health, if nothing else…

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5 Comments »

  1. Wow! That’s really exciting that an agent wants to read the first three chapters! Is this the same one that I got to read an early draft of? I am so rooting for that book, both because I’m rooting for you, and because I love that your book is about young women and is NOT all about falling in love.

    How about praying that the Lord would be glorified through this book specifically and through your writing in general, whatever that means?

    Am off to pray for you…

    Comment by Andrea — December 19, 2009 @ 7:34 am | Reply

  2. Oops, there it is in your first line, your “historical fiction book.” Heh. Well, OK then, so yeah, GO AWESOME BOOK!

    Comment by Andrea — December 19, 2009 @ 7:35 am | Reply

  3. YAY! Hang tough. Pray, drink extra large mugs of tea for comfort, call me when you have bitten your nails down to the quick, and remember…I believe in you! That’s really exciting!

    Comment by botanyhead — December 19, 2009 @ 8:47 am | Reply

  4. That’s so super fabulous! You know, after reading book after writing book about how unresponsive agents are and how it takes at least seven years to publish your first novel, I think you’re making it all look really easy. See: Evidence that your writing = best.

    Comment by Wol — December 19, 2009 @ 9:57 am | Reply

  5. Fight the little grey donkey inside! Go Kathy! You are an inspiration to writers everywhere.

    Comment by Cran — December 19, 2009 @ 11:05 am | Reply


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